Camino de Santiago 3rd update
3rd October 2016
The last time I posted in this blog, I was with Jenny in Pamplona. Since then, the biggest change in the dynamic has been that Jenny had to leave at that point, to get back to work– and has been sorely missed ever since. From Pamplona, I departed alone, passing through Los Arcos, Santo Domingo de la Calzada and Burgos, with the prospect of meeting up with my dad a few days later in Calzadilla de la Cueza. Since then, we've pushed on to León and Molinaseca, where we are taking a rest day – probably much more necessary for me than for my dad! This has meant crossing the Meseta, a Plateau which is not quite – at least from a cyclist's perspective! – as flat as it is made out to be. After Leon, the terrain becomes once again mountainous. So it has been quite tough going – crossing the Meseta meant riding into a headwind for substantial parts of the journey, and the climbs are getting slower and slower. On the ride from León, I also met up with two Argentines - Matías and his sister Candela - and a fellow cycling pilgrim from Spain, Ángel, and we cycled together from León to Astorga. I have my deeply lovely Argentine friend, Lorena, to thank for this connection– She put me in contact with Matías, who has travelled from Argentina over to do the Camino by way of celebrating his 40th birthday, which in fact is today – happy birthday, Matías! Each day, therefore, has featured a very agreeable mix of both solitude and company. And from this mix has emerged a few more thoughts. Perhaps they are not so different from some of the thoughts I've already written about.
Kindness and goodwill are things I've been thinking about recently on the Camino. When cycling on my own, I've got into this habit of saying 'buen camino!' to almost every person I cycle past. Which may seem like overkill! And which tends to elicit quite a range of responses, from non-recognition (a lot of people have earphones in as they walk), to big smiles and enthusiastic waves. But it is an exercise in offering goodwill, in wishing people well and, in so doing, receiving goodwill back from them. As such, rather than an act which becomes almost meaningless through repetition, it's actually quite addictive! I think it says something a little sad about the societies we live in – well, at least the society I live in – that well wishing towards strangers is not exactly encouraged. But it is enabled, even encouraged, by the fellowship of the Camino, and for me, it's been one of the most enjoyable things about it. It's also one of the reasons why I've started, in recent days, to come off the paved road and onto the walkers path. This is despite many parts of the path being more easily and sensibly tackled on a mountain bike with suspension, than a bike like mine, which is much more like a road bike with knobbly but still quite thin tires and a wholly rigid frame. But I feel like I'm starting to understand the appeal of cyclocross, which previously seemed to me to entail selecting the wrong bike for a surface which would actually have been more fun on a mountain bike.
Another recurring theme is that of pain. Despite having been on the bike for something like 850 km now, I don't feel that I'm in too bad shape. I've had a couple of scrapes - one with a washing line (I was hung out to dry as my uncle Ged quipped on Facebook); and one where I could not clip my shoe out from my pedal in time and fell a bit painfully on my left side, resulting in some gashes to my elbow which subsequently got infected. But they were so lovely to me at the health centre in León, and sorted me out so quickly, sending me on my way with antibiotics, that it hasn't been a problem at all. I have some little niggles, and beyond that just an ever greater exhaustion of the legs which makes me slower and slower up the hills, like a car engine that has lost compression over many miles on the road, but is somehow always capable of continuing. But this, happily, is at least partially alleviated by taking a day off the bike. So I feel lucky, but some of the ailments, ranging from commonplace blisters to thoroughly gruesome swellings and lesions, I've seen amongst walkers make me wonder how they can think it's advisable, or even possible in some cases, to continue. Some of them do not, whilst others soldier on and defy gloomy warnings from doctors not to do the Camino in the first place. In fairness, in some cases, their bodies are holding up very well, even healing; although the person I'm thinking of in particular has already done the Camino five times before and has made sensible adjustments, not least using an electric bike to take some of the strain, even though he is a strong cyclist. And indeed, some parts of my body, such as my back, actually feel better now than they did before I left.
I sometimes wonder if there is an unhealthy focus on the importance of pain on the Camino. I think there is this perception amongst some walkers – though perhaps I am just ignorantly stereotyping! – that unless you are going through the pain of walking the whole thing, you are not doing it properly. Therefore, pilgrims in cars, on motorbikes – even on bicycles – are not earning their stripes. In some ways, this is unsurprising – there is a focus on suffering and pain within some strains of Catholicism, and perhaps this comes through in this kind of attitude. My own feeling is that it's not about how you travel, but the motivations which compel you to travel and the experiences that you have along the way. From that point of view, pain is not exactly irrelevant, partly because all modes of transport induce some kind of pain – not to mention the emotional pain which often spurs people on to do a journey like this. But it is secondary, a byproduct of the journey. Perhaps more important is the relationship that you develop with pain. There can be empathy through physical pain – sometimes, if I feel pain, I think of what my mum and sister went through, And it really somehow motivates – it's almost like having one last, easier gear on the bike that you can switch into you when the going gets so tough that you wonder whether you can carry on. This happened yesterday, whilst crawling up to the top of an 800 meter climb and whizzing triumphantly down perhaps the longest descent I've ever done, switching rapidly from the depths of exhaustion to the heights of elation – such is frequently the physical and emotional cycle of the Camino.
Whilst thinking of my mum and sister tends to put things into perspective, it also somehow brings me a little closer to them, makes me feel more in contact with them. I would never choose to suffer in the way that they did, and nor would they have chosen their suffering. So whilst there seems little sense in seeking pain out, I can also see why some people sometimes consider it to be a spiritual experience. Certainly, it seems to me, it is a many-splintered thing when it is with us. And on some level, up to a certain point, depending on our relationship with it, can even be embraced.
And finally, I just wanted to mention how beautiful and resonant it has been that I have encountered so many people who, like me, I doing this pilgrimage in memory of someone that they knew. It is another of the ways in which these people live on with and through us.
That's all for now folks! I probably won't now do another update until I get to Santiago– until then, buen camino!